I came from the sea, already
ten months pregnant.
Russell's beach hut was close;
I was sorry, so sorry, harsh-breathed
as he parted the flaking blue door
from the frame.
He made cruel jokes
about sperm whales; offered woody
tea; talked it over like
a premium rate agony aunt.
Warm foam, gentle water -
tub-bound I took everything off.
Because I breathed under
the surface, he finally
liked me; a goldfish girl,
dolphin-gened, some biological
magic trick.
I would emerge
face slick, sheened - screen
door paper sagging with humidity -
finally we kissed.
The baby came. Things changed.
The greatest shame for my kind
is our depe
You're a great
Irish wolfhound of a man.
Fingers cut by unwarmed
bedroom air thrust
up and down over
keys to find you.
They're searching, all
chubby hips, leather
jackets, loners, ladies.
None of them follow
your scent as well
as I. You're too
beautiful to hide.
Come to me. What's
wrong with kneeling, resting
in my lap? Sweet baby,
I could give
lung flutters, acid-flavoured
purring, such body symphony
for you. I'd
welcome you home, into
me. There is no mat.
Don't bother
to wipe your feet.
They're coming to take me away
from you;
they say I have worn out
my eyes from staring.
True, I weep sand
now and again, but
gritty lashes don't matter,
don't put off a man who
cannot see.
"What would you rather be,
deaf or blind?"
You're neither,
being made of paint.
People meet their loves
anywhere: you could be
on a coffee run on a TV
set, in a jacuzzi, drunk -
so what if I met you
between the lines
of a frame?
Can't you breathe,
just for me?
Can't you kill the
people who insist on
kissing around me?
The sound upsets me so.
You loved me in exile
when I was fragile
red-tape
toxic
you are the navigator
come bravely to conquer
but
my bones have married
banished soil
you'll have to stoop
to stoop to
unearth me again.
A whisper in November
morning hours: I bathed
in the snow
of your eyes; crushed
dreams iced my breasts,
slowed my heart.
I was cloud, cobweb -
laid in the slipstream
which told
breesh
hushh
secrets
to my dewed earlobes.
I was asleep
wide awake; you kissed
my bare, wriggling
heart and left.
I cried for my cold dream,
Braille-fleshed, pnuemoniad.
I gave birth
to a devil's purse. Out burst
a fish-tailed baby.
She bit at the air, hucked
and rattled - nuzzled
a stale glass
of water - I knew
I had to set her free
(in the rain)
quay edge blunt,
judicial; she swam
beautifully. She'd
forgotten me.
She lives in the vanishing point
where I cannot see.
(Please,
make my eyes Oedipal.)
Sad Tale of My Birthday by SymphonyInWilde, literature
Literature
Sad Tale of My Birthday
My birthday this year:
Twenty-one is a special bunch
of years, but I was disallowed
much fun.
Someone I started to love
clapped another girl upon
his knee, looked at me
unashamed, and I was
out the room like a shot.
Opaque cocktails came back up
into the washing basket,
the only container in my room -
my birthday was paying dividends,
all over again.
Like Hermione churning with morning
sickness, I gushed. Leontes
was copping off in the other
room; I brimmed
with loneliness, with spit.
She was the type whose nipples
itched when central heating woke
each new winter; grew her
toenails long - you are
imagining her as disgusting, she is
not but neither is she striking
a chord with anyone as beautiful-
in-her-own-way. She bought a new
pair of gloves, promptly
sacrificed one half to an
untidy room; probably now
you believe she is clumsy,
she is not so stop trying to
imagine her and only
listen. He
for she has a he
enjoys his Italian surname and uses
"Don" for each online handle,
but has minimal chest hair, an
imposter. Maybe he spilt
hot cheese on himself once, has a
burn on a knee, maybe not - you
think he
O, O I am speaking Shakespeare doing it
so differently from how you would, and all
thoughts are on how you might do it -
even our mouths are varied species; mine
small, plump lips, opening to a width
unimaginable - a baby bird squawking - and
yours long, thin, sharp, laughing,
angry in its curling, clever,
clever boy.
As long as I keep speaking you are
shadowing - I cannot get
away.
I came from the sea, already
ten months pregnant.
Russell's beach hut was close;
I was sorry, so sorry, harsh-breathed
as he parted the flaking blue door
from the frame.
He made cruel jokes
about sperm whales; offered woody
tea; talked it over like
a premium rate agony aunt.
Warm foam, gentle water -
tub-bound I took everything off.
Because I breathed under
the surface, he finally
liked me; a goldfish girl,
dolphin-gened, some biological
magic trick.
I would emerge
face slick, sheened - screen
door paper sagging with humidity -
finally we kissed.
The baby came. Things changed.
The greatest shame for my kind
is our depe
You loved me in exile
when I was fragile
red-tape
toxic
you are the navigator
come bravely to conquer
but
my bones have married
banished soil
you'll have to stoop
to stoop to
unearth me again.
I gave birth
to a devil's purse. Out burst
a fish-tailed baby.
She bit at the air, hucked
and rattled - nuzzled
a stale glass
of water - I knew
I had to set her free
(in the rain)
quay edge blunt,
judicial; she swam
beautifully. She'd
forgotten me.
She lives in the vanishing point
where I cannot see.
(Please,
make my eyes Oedipal.)
She was the type whose nipples
itched when central heating woke
each new winter; grew her
toenails long - you are
imagining her as disgusting, she is
not but neither is she striking
a chord with anyone as beautiful-
in-her-own-way. She bought a new
pair of gloves, promptly
sacrificed one half to an
untidy room; probably now
you believe she is clumsy,
she is not so stop trying to
imagine her and only
listen. He
for she has a he
enjoys his Italian surname and uses
"Don" for each online handle,
but has minimal chest hair, an
imposter. Maybe he spilt
hot cheese on himself once, has a
burn on a knee, maybe not - you
think he
O, O I am speaking Shakespeare doing it
so differently from how you would, and all
thoughts are on how you might do it -
even our mouths are varied species; mine
small, plump lips, opening to a width
unimaginable - a baby bird squawking - and
yours long, thin, sharp, laughing,
angry in its curling, clever,
clever boy.
As long as I keep speaking you are
shadowing - I cannot get
away.
dreams of the Gardener by SymphonyInWilde, literature
Literature
dreams of the Gardener
Fingers in ribbons
she shuffled to me
the patio chairs
and the cup of tea I'd poured.
I'd found her weeding without gloves
offered cream, bandages, a thick
white carnation dropped on my saucer.
Pert on the sage
cushion she lay flat snagged hands
on the table's difficult surface
shot my eyes through the circle
of hers -
I will not love
she said again.
Let me love angels for I will not love ordinary men.
The ring in my trousers
bloomed with the hard
necessity of staying secret
for another day.
The Unfaithful Man, II by SymphonyInWilde, literature
Literature
The Unfaithful Man, II
The unfaithful man, mottled
with shaving cream, roped
two lilac valances together,
abseiled from the bathroom window.
For five days his wife made raisin cakes,
warm with rum:
stacks of cakes grew over the counters,
moist, dark, unhappy blocks.
The doorbell rang when the cakes
threatened the empty belly of the sink.
"Why were you so long?"
mumbled the wife.
"I lost my eye to a low-hanging branch,
had to chase it across a cobbled road."
He grinned like a rogue with a scar-stiffened face
and gave her a jar of marmalade
with a scrubbed-out Best Before label.
Cupping your gun-chin
I pushed my smirk down into you
through ribs, silken tendon
ropes bright as strawberry liquorice,
into your belly. Your gun-chin
cracked for mercy
but I had found my trove I was
taking root inside a saccharine
crabbing pool - the endearments I gave
in mouth to mouth fights, you imbibed, melted
down
and couldn't expel.
I am on a swing and I am looking very hard
at a perfume advert held in a glowing
glass rectangle, a blister on the side
of a bus shelter.
A woman with facial skin
like a laundered shirt is trying
to seduce me into reaching out
for the glass globe in her hand.
An interesting colour, like the wrapper
of expensive chocolate, gleams on the fat flank
of this globe
and in the woman's lower lip.
I am swinging as high as the chains
will allow, holding a staring contest
with this well-pressed lady;
the evening is dusty and humid,
my linen shorts tight on my dimpled thighs.
I am the unsexiest thing in the world -
fourteen, mouth rigg
Girl Who Forgot How to Sleep by SymphonyInWilde, literature
Literature
Girl Who Forgot How to Sleep
Her body became one long starched sleeve, a joke
on the theme of straitjackets, eyes heavily open, fixed
on the bulging wall;
cramps came and crushed her guts;
the resulting cube might easily
have been a lilac car
left out in the rain.
With a snarl like a banana skin
splitting, her lips unzipped,
like the corner shop, staying open past 4am
unable to repair.
After the third sunrise
hair came away in wheaty bushels
earmarked with gold by rude light;
the fourth shone on a caged
pair of parched blue dots, ruffling
their jellied flanks as they strained
to pop from the skull
of the girl who'd forgotten how to sleep.
No one thinks
to dream
Black Mercy
scrapes, churlish
from sense-slick
long ago
I was often there
in promenade,
sick by the clevelander,
pools dissolving
into dead or dying eyes
borne on
tres delinqentes
in its full descent
to plasma-blue
2 bleu,
ce ciel est bien au bleu.
If under mulch she sang a rotten
wood-like note with quiver
Nostalgic for her days alive
Surely they could forgive her
Most days it's quiet (these days it's cold)
Her bones observe the soil
But Spring is pulsing warm and gold
Teasing memories to boil
Like heated milk the liquid smell
of evening drips in branches
A honeybee who suffocates
falls near her musing ashes
"Is it wine or light strawberry?"
She asks him of the sky
Though his dead ears don't hear her query
The answer is "Like dye"
Just under mulch I hear a rotten
wood-like note with quiver
Flushing young in days alive
Of course I can f
I study Early Modern English Lit at Sussex, UK; I write poetry, visit museums and sites of historical interest, act, direct, go to the theatre and wear down my teeth with sweets in my spare time.
Favourite Movies
Metropolis
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Tori Amos, Emilie Autumn, Regina Spektor, Kate Bush, Les Mis soundtrack
Other Interests
Poetry, short stories, sexualised fairytales, magic realism, reading.
I really dislike using deviantArt. In brief, there is little to no critique, no real poetry-centric community (My Little Pony icon shit everywhere, what) and a horrible push-button system built to pump a feel-good release into whoever can favourite the shit out of stuff the quickest and in the greatest volume. I'm not likely to find a decent critiquing community online at all, but whatever the case, I won't find anything near what I need to develop my skills here.
Also I hate the colour scheme, really truly.
I feel like I have grown out of posting poetry to places like this. I'm in the process of researching a 15,000 dissertation in order t
I think I might take up the mantle of Poet again, if only for a while. You remind me of my love for commas and line breaks. In poetry that speaks without rhymes. Thanks. It's been a while since I've written a poem.
I'm flattered, really. I gave up on writing rhyming poetry in absolute disgust and it took a while to learn that poetry can be beautiful and communicative without being trite. If you like, I can point you in the direction of a couple of sites that really helped me get back into the craft and understand it a little better. Just give me a shout if you'd like the links. Thank you for the wonderful comment and the watch.
Oh, that would be wonderful! I miss poetry, sometimes. Thanks so much, for the links. My writing teacher always said, "NO cheese. NO disclaimers. NO RHYMES!!!!!! And no, I repeat, NO unrequited love. Now write, children!" Good, ol' Mr. Pullen. xD